This week I've decided to dedicate the following post to the Beyond Blue foundation and all my friends who live with Depression. Depression is not a dirty word. It can strike anyone at any age. Some people live with it undiagnosed and their relationships with family and friends often suffer. The following post will give readers the opportunity to have a little insight into what some people living with the condition have to overcome on a daily basis. There is no miracle pill that can make these feelings completely go away - despite the modern advances in medicine. Every experience is different. Talking about it helps as well as having a support network of friends who understand. If you realise there is something in the following post that feels familiar, don't be scared. You are not alone.
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The feelings of emptiness are best described as a nothingness that consumes the soul.
Eyes stare without purpose as darkness shackles the spirit, dragging it underwater.
Cowering in caves with companions of self-doubt and worthlessness, only feed the gremlins holding me down.
I know the light is out there, but this daily struggle is wearing me out. My will is slowly ebbing toward giving up.
Sometimes I see the end in sight.
Loneliness is a force of nature we all battle, but when the black dog wakens - your ass belongs to it.
Like a master, it must be obeyed. The destruction has to be ridden out.
Knowing the black dog will soon go back to sleep is the only hope I have of waking from this hellish nightmare.
Safe - no, you're not. Tread carefully now, so as not to wake the sleeping giant.
Avoid public places and basic daily routine to break the judgement of others who might suspect.
Paranoia lurks around every corner. Someone knocking at my door - I fear the beast will wake.
Quick! Put on a mask - pretend. Find a happy place. Seek refuge from the invisible shackles that arise to claim me.
Thank you for reading.
Understanding this condition is only half the fight.
If you feel as though you might be suffering from depression, you're not alone.
Please contact www.beyondblue.org.au or call (in Australia) 1300 22 4636.
There is life after Blue.